some more.

More of the same I am afraid. Calculate the milliliters on your own. I got teh alpha und teh omegah.

The start was signaled by a single shot. Muscles that had been loosened in preparation for the burst so long awaited suddenly went into action. The espresso was not only necessary but was also sufficient. Nothing beats it, millions agree and that must mean its true. I see plenty people in this mode of action throughout the day. Machines need their fuel, humans need their coffee. When technology becomes developed enough to support brain implants, we’ll need electricity.
I suspect around the same time wool shirts will become the source of elaborate nano-tech static electricity jokes. Of course only children will make these jokes. Adults will take them seriously since up to 2% their older model chips can still be wrecked havoc on by woolen shirts. But children could care less. They always proceed so simply, back to first principles as it were, ready to rediscover the wheel, or a traumatic experience in this case. But of course that would be deep in the future and I have gotten off track as usual.

Sitting in the coffee shop I look around and notice certain details. The middle class, yesterday’s newspaper, two pens, one useless, a queue of people waiting for coffee, tired zombie-like expressions on the coffee crew, a red dress coming out of the bathroom, and some cookie crumbs on a napkin. What a pathetic scene, honestly. I should split with it, but I hear things. Interesting things.

“The mentality is strikingly foreign to me. Its like I’m stuck in the twilight zone.” says one.
“Yeah?”, the other.
“I mean, for you this probably isn’t the case, but for me, it could be nothing but the case.”
“What do you mean?” – puzzled.
“Well, you wanna hear the long or the short version?”
“I wanna hear the long one, but…”
“But you only got time for the short one, right?”
“Well, yeah, my lunch break is turning into dinner, if you know what I mean.”
“Yeah. Sorry, well, basically the short and skinny of it can be summed up in a quote by some hopeless philosopher whose name I no longer remember. ‘Those who don’t figure out love at an early age, will never figure it out.’ Or something like that. But the jist of it obvious, I think. I never figured out love in school, and I still don’t get it. Its like some strange spectacle where two people become their own favorite illusions and…”
“Ah, yeah, I see where you’re going with this. Man, look… Look- Maan. All I gotta say is that quote is basically bullshit. Love may be bullshit, so call it what it is if that is what it is. But I challenge you to find something better.”
“Yeah, I guess. But you gotta find it.”
“Yes, you do. And I gotta go to work. And you can give me the long version under the whiskey, on the rocks-later. Later!”

“Peace.” he says “I guess.” I suspect he thinks.

I turn my attention to the newspaper headline. It speaks of the latest juicy tits uncovered by soon to be anonymous, now immortal Idols. Under the shadow of the mammories is a more respectable article written by Washir S. Landon of the St. Augustine Gazette. My newly spotted friend is about to miss it himself, lead by common sense no doubt.

“Striking New Evidence in Mase Case”

While our buddy didn’t read the article, from his scan he detected the key words, “AP reports…” “…SA Police followed up on a lead from senator’s aide…,” “…search of Senator’s premises found bank transcripts with withdrawals from O.L.P. linked overseas accounts…,” “no case can be made at this point…,” “Abdul Al-Harizi” “…not a suspect…,” “…a person of interest.” A sufficient scan. My own scan revealed nothing more substantial. The jist of it is that for one reason or another the police thinks its a better idea to release the OLP scenario, and have this Al-Harizi cat associated with Sen. Verrazzano. But the transcripts are significant.

I have to admit, on some background level a part of me already wanted both of them publicly executed in St. Augustine park. Nooses and everything, hot dog salesmen making big bucks, and old ladies discussing the gruesome details with respectable glee. The sheer joy and responsibility of having that mafia motherfucker and that towel-head bastard expeditedly shipped to hell, for eternal damnation, will have to fall on the conspiracy minded local vigilante. The rest of us will have the admittedly less enjoyable task of objectively potentially sending them to purely temporal hell through a jury of their peers, suspected mafia figures and terrorists, of course.

If our buddy thought the same thing, he must have thought it in a microsecond, because he quickly folded up the paper, and started fidgeting with his watch, looking for an excuse to leave the joint.

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“Nonfiction”
So this sociology shooter character got me wondering a little.. Just a little. If he could do it, who couldn’t?
As that commercial goes Not that you would, but you could…

I suggest they get some metal detectors in those fucking buildings. Just a friendly expensive suggestion to whoever writes the next budget for the relevant state governments. Gun legislation is neither hopeless nor pointless, but then again neither is it particularly suited to American psycho(patho)logy. In the state of CA(that sunny happy place ;{ ), you could buy a shotgun before you could purchase a pistol(back when I was around). Then again you can also go fight in a major war before you can vote but I’m too tired to play devil’s advocate.

My sincere apologies to whoever is suffering from any of the endless tragedies, but I don’t really care about you.(not right now at least)

I’m honest enough to admit it. Obviously if it hit me or someone close to me, I’d be concerned, but you are all TV to me, and that’s a dangerous place to be.

If I’m a beast for saying this, as I know well enough a mother (AND WHY NOT A FATHER!) of a victim would think, then I am no more a beast than the average. Are we a society of beasts with pretty manners? How to make friends and influence people… Just smile and make people feel good about themselves. Thank you, you sales genius.

I prefer talking to an actual whore than to these fucking people. And I sure as fuck will not act like I care when I don’t. I am a piece of shit either way, this way at least I don’t conceal it.


“Fiction”
The things that make us think also make us drink. Unfortunately so far I haven’t figured out a cure to that one. On the plus side I’m cleaning up other things.
An attempt at a really short story:

Sally wakes up to the sound of a loud car horn coming from somewhere out her window. Her thoughts are all over the place and she doesn’t pay attention. To be more precise, her thoughts are still not thoughts, seeing as they are located in that nether region of the soul that is hard to project coherently into words. She still mutters. “Fuck.” Instinctively her hand goes for the alarm, but the car horn does not comply. It simply refuses to comply, as if something else were controlling it. Well long story short bitch winds up dead. fin

Yeah, something ends up missing. Much like the author’s attempt to write while under the influence thoughts don’t make senssssssssseee. Then again some cats are trying to fit it all into six words or less. Godbless.More drunk than disgusted. People shouldn’t read drunken drivel, but they will anyway.
A silly lullaby in fifteen minutes high:

1.
–1828
An attempt at unedited serenity, my mind is the amenity that is in short supply I’m trying to do things that no one can reply to or for the type of shit that makes grown men mumble, silly suckers passing and then they fumble. The ball is on the court and life is but a game, a silly pawn in a silly pain. This type of thing makes me ponder on positions because on this board a square can cost a pretty penny or a nickle if you’re into paper, what a delicious caper, has people babylike, like a milkshaker.

I’m the type who speaks his mind until its time to tell the truth then the up goes the time and down goes the cool, unworried exterior. Its no longer fun and I’m drowning in the sun, the same that shines from above, the constant reminder of the one I love. You can counsel and you’d be right, and I listen and it’ll be alright, till the time comes for the final flight.
1834–

–1835
Tell me momma, tell me please if these things are killing me, the things I talk about are similar to what you suspect, but what is real is never exactly what you expect. The pain is in the little things and I understand, please remember this was never the fucking plan. I forget things I cherished and used to build a temple unto, my hand is out the sewer and still waving, but I’m not sure the time will come for my saving. You know the old fairy tale about necessity, when it comes you yell, and it ain’t like Sesame, street or not its no reality, children in their frailty are up for a sink or swim, some forget to breathe out the water, and that’s the shit I’m in.
1842 –

After about 15 minutes of incoherent sentences I give up at any further attempts. Fuck it.

la-lalala-lalalalaLA-BABA-BABA- all you …. ..


TOMMY SASHIN- OLDWriting now, and feeling tense. What I say it makes some sense.
Can I wean this craft into a trade? Make this thing work, and get paid
Can you tell me how its made?This thing of ours, this little game, where we play today and rule tomorrow,
This thing of ours, this little play, where we make men of clay that soon decay;
This thing of hours, of many hours, of countless countless hours.

Call it ruthless life, call it the struggle I’ll be out there with pick and shovel digging through the ripest vein of that golden strain of power, drawing closer to the final hour if you must.
Oooh, so is it that in God we trust?

I find myself beyond the pale white ghost of the sinner’s past, looking backwards almost aghast, but not always humbled, my thanks are always mumbled, though I wish to scream- Let me be!- you devilish fiend.

I need to know if and when it will end, but for now my thoughts are focused on a friend. The one that has been there since the beginning and will maybe make it to the end, the one we call on when in struggle, a fierce and righteous man of scruples, making all our fortunes into quadruples, needing nothing but the pooper-scoopers of the day to carry away the remains of the disarray.

The man sleeps on a bed of nails, daily scraping and disinfecting wounds; his mind is made up to be alone.
Daily fiending for a bone- the dog’s life,
Ruthless to the point of rabies.
Never thought of having babies,
Single minded pursuit of sanity,
never quite ruled by gravity,
making things be what they never could be,
simply slipping on the heavenly planes,
with ice skates sliding down the lanes,
looking down on the earth frozen in eternity,
heavenly bodies made for the infirmary
now become the background to this bizarre theater,
call him Tommy the investigator.

“Tommy, Tommy, help me please, please attempt to ‘change’ these,
these fools, these liars, these evil-doers or else our city will be in ruins.”
spoketh I.

Tommy grunts with a displeased demeanor, it seems as though he’s been iffed,
even worse now, he’s looking meaner.
“Is it me?,” I squeak and quiver.
No reply, just a shiver
down my spine, as Tommy gives that look of do or die.

“The city must be saved, its you or I.
You are weak and so it must be I,
but before I make these dreams come true,
you must bring me what is mine due.”

I comply and so return with with a gallon of whaler’s rum-the simplest means for getting the job done.
Once Tommy’s done he wipes his face,
the sweat rolls down the brows of grace,
now he’s ready, don’t call the judge or jury,
its a man’s world and this man is silly putty-
in the right hands, he’ll do his duty,
true to form, loyal to the end to his friends
in high places trading spaces and trading faces.

Tommy leaps out the frame of his hovel and
lands on streets where men and women grovel.
He’s there to show you what is possible, and what is necessary
a lepper in the land of milk and money making plans-obituary.
(to be continued, maybe)